“I always thought that as I got older, I would have more people around me,” said Brenda in an old Six Feet Under episode. “But it’s just the opposite. We’re just focused more inward, get more honed into ourselves.
She’s so right.
While I certainly know more people as my rings slide down the banisters of life, peeling away so much paint as I go, I’ve gotten much pickier about who I spend an evening with. I’m more accepting, but less interested. Less judgmental, but more discriminatory.
I’ve spent more time inside my own being and I like it better there all the time.
Perhaps we all get addicted to our own rhythms. Who we really are. What we value. What we don’t. We get to know ourselves best.
Instinctively, I am sad. Like Brenda, I, too, anticipated connecting with others as I aged. But lately, I’ve grown to like it.
I could have written this.
it’s true